Nice Nihonjin?

This was actually what happened last week.

Now I'm doing internship in a Japanese-Indonesian online news port which is a part of Japanese newspaper company. It publishes newspaper for Japanese in Indonesia.

From the 2nd or 3rd day I started working, no one cares they put their stuffs on my table. Although I'm not actually bothered with that, I'm just an intern (I'm not even got paid so :V) and still got my working space.

Then suddenly last week, this nice and talkative mu'alaf Nihonjin (who started his internship a month after I came) took the stuffs on my table so I got more space. I didn't expect that would really happen. Only he cared. Maybe because we talked quite a lot...? He whined a lot about his job, which is interviewing people via phone, he didn't like that. Meanwhile, I think he really suits his job because he talks a lot hahah. Anyways of course I was so grateful for his help.

After working, when I was waiting for the lift to go home at the same day, suddenly I saw the other Nihonjin. This one was... actually I got my eyes on. He's quite sweet, cool and fun to talk with. He was about to go to bathroom, but when he saw me before the lift, he came to me and we talked a bit. He asked when my internship will be over and invited me if I still want to come for news reporting with him after my internship is over. Of course I said yes. Another unexpected thing wow. I don't know why would he do that? I'm just an intern after all. I didn't even do the news reporting properly when I went out with him.

I have this bad mind set that, if someone you just knew for a short time being very nice to you and you think your relation with them are still in strangers level (well in this case, they're like my superiors), I think they're into something, planning something bad. Especially when they're foreigners. I mean, I knew some nice foreigners but mostly I found via internet. Some friends I made because we have same hobbies, same animes and ships we like, and so on. Meanwhile, this time I met them IRL. Was I nice enough for them? Or do I look easy to be deceived?

Many super nice characters who smile a lot, were actually yandere or just evil. Maybe it's just because I watched anime or read manga too much that those kind of characters are the kinds I like the most (and they wouldn't die www). Despite all the suspicious things I'm thinking, I was happy those two who I like were being nice to me. That was really the first time ever foreigners being nice to someone like me IRL.

I hope they're really just nice people. They're so different with the others. It can't be helped that I myself don't talk too much and quite shy, so I don't get too friendly with others except when I think we have same commons, I would show them who I am. I don't want to disappoint anyone, I don't want people think I'm not a good person, so I better not to be close with anyone and be no one. Maybe I look like a coward, but so be it. I'm just being careful in relationship with others.

Anyhow, I think I talked too much already lol. I hope it's really just my negative thinking.
Now I'm hungry *go get some chips*